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there are too
many pills in this
world and too
much misery in
the human heart
but that didn't mean
that you could just
up and leave when
we both know it
could have gotten better
and i miss you like
a wolf misses her pack
or a goddamn dragon misses
her fire and i'm sorry
that i can't give you
a bouquet of jasmines
(they were your
favorite, after all,
because that was
the only princess
with a pet tiger)
because poppies are
too cliche and i'm
sorry i wasn't there
when all you needed
was a hug and for someone
to whisper "it's okay,
you're perfect enough
for me, don't listen
to that junkie bitch
who just happened to
give birth to you" and did
you know that i'm still waiting
for a reply to that one
email about the world's
best puns because fuck,
there's a stubborn part
of me that still refuses to
believe that you're gone.
I really can't.

So this is just words strung together as I think about you.

I miss you.

I wish I could have been there.

I know I should try to forget but I just need to write this for you.

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Anileseybear Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
This reminds me of Ashley. Thank you for this. :l And I'm really sorry that your friend died but saying that won't take the pain away. Just keep writing... It helps.
Vulpesvulpes6000 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2014
*says nothing. Gets up and walks over and gives hug.*
Nutcase9 Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Student General Artist
I've never understood why people get angry at someone who committed suicide. It seems awfully selfish, to immediately focus on how their death affects you.

I'm sorry your friend died, btw
kmull49 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Photographer
its a fantastic poem and i sad and sorry at wat u must still be going trough.
primalfuryan Featured By Owner May 14, 2014  Professional General Artist
:iconaparazita-r::iconsquirrelflight-77:Your artwork has been graciously featured in Titans Genuine Literature feature ,stay wonderful!Hug:iconsquirrelflight-77::iconaparazita-r:
KMusicDreamer Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry that you're going through this. There is no words to fix your heart, but I just want you to know that you're strong. That this poem is beautiful. That I cried. That you should never give up on your dreams, or writing. That everything is done, and you should live for her now, if not for yourself. I'm sure she would want that. I hope you feel some sort of comfort from what I'm saying, for I do care. -internet hugs- Hug 
KMusicDreamer Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Also, I know I recognized your name on here. I absolutely loved your poem, "How to love a girl who can't love herself." It was beautifully and perfectly executed. It's in my favorites and I shared it with my Facebook friends, and they absolutely adored it. Had countless likes. So I Hope some of them checked out your work. You deserve it.
ShalimarAOrion Featured By Owner May 8, 2014   Writer
This is what poetry is. Emotions on paper. *sob* :'/
Cevelr Featured By Owner May 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is beautiful.
My heart aches just reading this...
I can feel the emotion in each and every line.

The title of this poem just perfect.
I completely ignored the title until the end,
and I feel that made the finishing blow on my soul.

I hope by writing this you feel a little closure.
Rukikato1999 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
my heart broke
IGNITIONNINJA555 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well this must be the most real poetry I've ever seen. Wow.
PrettyRad-PrettySad Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014
This is the only poem that has ever made me break down crying. It's beautiful. If you ever need anyone to talk to about this, or anything for that matter, just message me.
darksack100 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014
That title makes the most sense out of any title I've seen today
LoveArt1399 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Student General Artist
I could just feel the emotion behind it!Waaaah! I am sorry
beleave Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
o and simply an opinion from some random person, however i feel compelled to state that i strongly
feel / think that you "should try to forget." that's a little weak for my taste, to borrow a phrase, and from your strung-out words (no pun intended, seriously) that forgetting is way too weak for your taste, as well.
~~ shrugs ~~

--keep on,
beleave Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014
i have to state that i love the title. the rest is so personal, it isn't for me to comment except to state that your enjambment, that your line breaks are well-done.
Desiree407 Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh gosh...

I've never known this kind of sorrow, so my "I feel for you" must be so empty... but for what it's worth, I do. :(
HeyMyNameIsRemi Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry.
OnigiriPandahats Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Student General Artist
GlazedUnicorns Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2014
Oh my gosh, dear.. :iconsadhugplz: 
12345AQUARIOUS Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2014  Hobbyist
you can really feel the power behind the words of the narrator, sad but good poem for showing strong emotions in a difficult situation
Waffles-Of-Gondolyn Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for writing this. My feelings just... Into words. If that makes any sense. 
Vallestin Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is amazing 
when in
doubt you
Must depend
on really good
line breaks
to make
your poem even more
fucking cool than it already is
Smoooovey Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014  Hobbyist
You make so many of us feel you with these expressions...alot of us have been there...kinda reminds me of the movie the bridges of Madison county...Thank you, very heartfelt, I'm sorry...We Still Smile
haphazardmelody Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is really, really good. I know this is stream-of-consciousness, but you've taken something everyone can relate to and just done it so well.

That being said, I'm sorry you've joined this group of people who understand how this feels. :heart: I know this is hard. :hug: I hope writing this helped at least a little.
anime-lover-cutie Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2014
it is indeed very sad to hear and even though you don't know me i'm here if you ever want to talk to someone
facetspera Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry.
Thank you though, for the opportunity to read your work.
miserabel Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I do not think I have words to describe this, other than those - beautiful and so, so sad. A personal word - though unwanted the advice might be - you do not have to try and forget. Just to continue breathing, keep your head up, and every now and then, allow yourself to look back and be sad.
It's fine.
We're not computers for a reason, or we would've been born with the option to delete memories. :huggle:
toasted-rupees3119 Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm actually fighting back tears on this one.
This is excellent. Beautifully heartbreaking.
Whetsit-Tuya Featured By Owner Feb 19, 2014  Student Filmographer
I think I see the message here, it's deep and beautiful
Amenarae Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
There is very little poetry out there that will have such an overwhelming effect on me as this one did. I'm fighting tears.
I'm sorry for your loss...
insomniaplague Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'm nearly crying & god dammnit. 
goodiesbasket Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Professional Writer
oh my god
xIntelligentxIdiotx Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014
This poem brought tears to my eyes. It's so heartfelt and raw and honest, and even though I haven't been in your situation, I can still feel your pain through your words. I'm sorry about your friend. I'm so, so sorry that this happened to both her and you. But I'm sure that where she is now, she knows how much you care. Heart 

VengefulFawn11 Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm sorry this happened. This is a pain neither side should have to endure. This is beautifully written, and the way you were able to get that raw emotion across is unbelievable.
It's a horrible thing to go through. It won't stop hurting, not for a while. And that's okay, even if it sucks. It's what makes you human. You don't need to try and forget her - you are allowed to take your time and grieve. I didn't know her personally, and this sounds cliché because of that, but I know she would appreciate this. No... That she does appreciate it.

I'm sure she's doing fine wherever she is now.

Ginnyweasley13 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
this is... it's very important. because my best friend and i, we're both the sort of person who this might have ended up being written about one day. and so this voices everything that i ever want to tell her every time that i think she'd gone and so this is very important.
MorganColene Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014  Student General Artist
Just lost a friend myself my heart goes out to you
Garner4444 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2014
... This poem brought tears to my eyes...
but thank you. thank you for writing this.
shadinglove Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
A beautiful Poem! It really makes u think! Great job!!!! I'm sorry for ur loss
DragonKeeper92 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is so beautiful, i love the thought of not sitting there thinking and planning each line, because you just spoke form the heart, not thinking, just writing. 
Wolflover112 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is absoultly amazing and I am truly sorry for your loss your friend who is now in heaven is looking down on you . You have amazing talent and you should know that I wish there was something that I could do to make you feel better just hang in there, I know you may not know me at all but if you need some one to talk to just note me I'll try to help you and give you a digital shoulder to cry on . *hugs* remember  things can get better.
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Cobw3b Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh gosh...this is the most honest, non-cliché and breathtaking piece of poetry I've read for months.
I think that we can never forget. And maybe we're not supposed to. I'm sorry for you. But you've
made the most beautiful thing out of your grief. Thank you so much for sharing this. <3
Fall-Like-Angels Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I made the mistake of reading this the first time while i was at school. ANd i nearly cried. And now i'm in school again, reading it again, and nearly crying in my speech class. Because in that moment, feeling these words like a tangible thing, i miss her too. I don't even know her name, her face, her story, and i miss her too.

I want to be able to say i get it, what it's like to miss someone who's gone like this. But I don't, so i can't. but know  that I'm an open ear and virtual shoulder to cry on if it's ever needed. 

And as tragic as all this is, your words are beautiful.
BreeBree135 Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Miellat Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Student Writer
So I was going to comment the other day and I favorited this so I wouldn't forget but I failed sooooo---
Anyways, when I read this, I just felt so attached to you--and her. Even though I haven't met you, or her, or know what made her make that decision, I felt like I was you, and I knew what it was like to lose her. I'm sorry for her and you, and I wish it didn't end that way. I'm sure she was a beautiful girl, though, and that she wouldn't want you to mourn over her. :c
This is so worthy of a Daily Deviation, I swear it, I felt the pain in this piece.
You're a great writer, you really are.
Dianthus15 Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2014  Student Artist
PaperbackWriter314 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful and tragic, thank you for being able to share this.
wordslikewater Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
oh my god, this is so beautiful
Pluto785Ronoh Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful, forgetting isn't the key but excepting could do something.
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