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i wanna try and become a better cook so 

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6 deviants said so i would prefer the recipes to be kind to a college budget as well
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4 deviants said especially pastas
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4 deviants said so yeah could u help me out?????
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2 deviants said mind giving me recipes?
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2 deviants said i mean ones that are easy for a useless fuck like me
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2 deviants said wanna move out by next year because i am so done with my parents constantly putting me down
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hey sorry but

Fri Aug 28, 2015, 1:07 PM
I really gotta say this.

So, as some of you may know, I started my second year of college this week. And let me tell you...I am thoroughly unimpressed with three out of my four classes. I won't go into detail about them, because this isn't what this journal will be about, but honestly I've already had it with them and want to drop out but, you know, I need the credits to graduate community college in time. They're going to be very hard and very time-consuming, which means I'll practically have no me time. Moving on...

My car is acting up again. From the moment I bought the damn thing last year, it's had problem after problem. Since it's a Suzuki not many repair shops know how to fix it because that company is out of business in America and the parts have to be shipped from overseas. This week I had to take it in because it was making an awful noise plus it wasn't starting immediately. Turns out, it's a really big problem that may cost me up to $900. I don't even have $300 in my checking account, and my separate savings account cannot be touched until so many years otherwise I lose the interest and benefits. I only make $7.50 at my cashier job, and I barely will get 20 hours a week now that classes have started. My parents don't really want to help pay since they've paid for a lot of the prior fuck-ups with my car, so...I guess what I'm trying to say is if I perhaps opened some sort of donation thing, would anyone even contribute? I know it's a lot to ask and I'm basically just some stranger to 99% of you, and it's not a definite thing, but I'm kind of desperate. So yeah.

Lastly.......

My grandma has cancer. I just found out yesterday. It was caught in the early stages so there's hope but she's in her late seventies and already has some health problems, so who knows? She's my only grandparent I have left (my dad's father died long before I was born and his mother was a bitch who abused me mentally and when she died I felt nothing but relief as horrible that is to say; my mother's father died a few years ago and I was not exactly close with him because by the time I was born he had become an alcoholic who wanted nothing to do with me, but it was hard seeing my mother and the rest of the family so upset, especially my grandma who is normally an unemotional person but still occasionally cries about this) and also one of the few people who openly supports me whenever my mother brings me down.  I'll only be the third grandkid out of 13 to graduate from college most likely, and honestly when I think about DeeDee not being there to see me, I...well, last night I cried quite a lot. More than I have in awhile. I'm not religious in the slightest but she's heavily Catholic so if, I dunno...those of you who believe in that sort of thing, mind sending her some good vibes? I'm going to try as shitty as I am at this stuff now because my grandma deserves it.

Well, yeah, that's about it. Sorry for dropping the bomb. I hate getting all "woe is me" nowadays because I know that so many people have it worse, but sometimes I just really need to post these things.

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Bridget
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i'm a writer, but i'm not a very good one and at the moment i'm sort of on a hiatus while i focus on my mental health. i'm kind of an awkward person and tend to forget to reply to people, so i apologize if you've ever sent me something and never gotten a response.

i appreciate all the feedback i get, however, and truly adore everyone who support me. you guys are great and the reason i'm still on this trainwreck of a website.

hugs and kisses to you all!!! ╰(✿´⌣`✿)╯♡

ps i tend to be more active on my tumblr which is located in the link below. it's an amalgamation of fandoms, but feel free to check it out!

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seraphiclungs Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Um um hello I would like to awkwardly tell you that you look really adorable in your deviantID, yeah :heart: 
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2015
:love: I keep forgetting that you are you with your name change. So thought I'd come by and tell you HI. YOURE AWESOME. <3
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undeadxsiren Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I was drawn in moments ago just skimming through Phileo, as it was on the front page when I logged in to dA.

Oh my. I must. Read. More.

I absolutely adore mythological fiction and exploring of origin stories/portrayals of gods and mortals.

Needless to say, I have watched you, skimmed through your other written works, and I am sure I shall find myself further enraptured by your beautiful writings. *_* <3
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AshleyDaDabbler Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2015
Just dropping in to say I love your work... and I'm watching you now. 


... Like, DA watching you, not from outside your window or anything... I promise.

Stare Stare Stare 
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qtoria18 Featured By Owner May 16, 2015
Hello! Just wanted to say that I loove your fanfictions!Love 
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vienna-kangaroo Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
touches ur face
can u feel the... magnetism
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epiIogue Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I love your works! The words and descriptions you use are amazing<3
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Chamjari Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2015   Artist
long over do upgrade to the name.  lupus-astra way good.
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ECHORIVER6450 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You are amazing... and kinda a inspiration to me
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